i shouldn’t be allowed to have emotions they just get in the way, the constantly thinking and feeling about someone that don’t feel the same way. it’s just emotionally draining. It gives me anxiety attacks and headaches. At this point i don’t know if i should let things be or actually go for it. decisions..decisions.. decisions.
is having sex with me meaningless in your eyes?.. cause in mine it always means a lot
I drink, smoke cigarettes, say fuck a lot, and am always blunt. I attack when I am provoked and don’t stop fighting battles until I win the war. But I don’t start or spread rumors, I don’t make assumptions about people I do not know and I would never do anything to intentionally hurt a complete stranger. So why is it acceptable for others to try and hurt me when I don’t even know their name.
staying positive, getting happy, life is getting on track,putting the pieces back together there is a couple missing..but i’ll manage. working on myself yet i wish a certain someone would of stuck around to see me how i am now….
i’m losing it
i’ve lost it….
i miss you..alot.
i want to call you up and have you come over…so we can watch movies and cuddle.
but i know you won’t answer i know you won’t come..
i hate to admit this but i think you were right.. right about everything in my shitty existence. everything you have ever said is true i’m a pessimistic, selfish,& a bit melodramatic. i don’t blame you for leaving me, not wanting & stop loving me…i really don’t have much to offer a guy,but at least i can admit my down falls, my mistakes,& errors unlike you. i’ve never had to try as hard as i’ve tried with you& as you can see i failed.
Dare I say I miss him? I do. I miss him. I still see him in my dreams. They are nightmares mostly, but nightmares tinged with love. Such is the strangeness of the human heart.
When the past calls, let it go to voicemail. It has nothing new to say.
what a crazy idea someone thinking about me, has the possibility of a bear not shitting in the woods.
it’s a heart wrenching thing when something goes bad, when words make you sad and your thoughts make you go mad… i said this in a dream last night i think it has some underlining meaning because i still remember it.
I find nothing more attractive than a person who can carry a conversation with me about absolutely nothing for hours.
“Don’t go. I’ll eat you up, I love you so…”- where the wild things are.
I’ve given up on love
Due to the fact that all my past relationships
They all went down like sunken ships
And left me with the bitter taste that still remains
silly me for thinking it was going to be something meaningful, my bad.
you make me second guess everything i was so sure of..
